I Will Go

I Will Go by Starfield... another song that reaches deep into my heart. 


To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you
Send me!

plans

I apologize for the month in a half absence from my blog. Today, my plans failed again. The planes took off without me bounded for Sierra Leone and I am still here in Texas. I am more sad, scared, and questioning God today than two months ago when I had to buy tickets stateside. I arrived home to have gallbladder surgery and everything went well. I was on the road to recovery, resting, and visiting friends and family. While in Tyler at the end of September, I was in a car accident leaving me with a three fractures in my right arm. That is when I posted the song below on my blog. With the pain and a long cast on, I could not use my right arm and was prevented from going back to Africa until the doctor ordered my release. That came just a few weeks ago and I bought tickets immediately for today. I said my goodbyes to friends and ate all my favorite foods this past week. My packing day was scheduled for Friday so I could spend the weekend with my parents. However, my dad is now in the hospital about to have heart surgery tomorrow. Please pray for him and my family. I am here for to be here for my parents. Right now, my plans are on hold... for Africa, for the future. This breaks my heart more than anything. I have to give my plans to God. I had hoped to update my blog with news with my return to Sierra Leone, but this is not the case. What can I say to make sense of it all? I rest in God's unfailing love and promises that I will never walk alone. The passages belows have been comfort to me as some days it has felt I am alone and others I see His hand moving me along His will.


"For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” 
Esther 4:13-15

"His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ." 2 Peter 1:3-8

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 10:28-29